Straight Woman who married GAY

Anthaku mundu husband torture nundi thapinchuni present baby tho life lead chesthuna Deepa experiences manatho chepparu kuda.. E story lo oka gay ni pelli cheskuni narakam chusi dani nundi bayata ochina maro ammay thana experience ni manatho share cheskuntuntaru..

In her own words..........

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Andaru ilane untaru ani kaadu, nenu na experience ni, na struggle ni, dani nundi nenu nerchukunadi metho share cheskuntuna. Just to create awareness about this kind of people.

Ma parents ki nenu okkadane ammaayi ni. Na life chinnappati nundi, chaduvu ayyedaaka chala normal ga gadichindi, aa tharwatha job vachindi, job chesthunte chuttalu vacharu, evevo matches thecharu. Konni jaathakaalu ani, kontha mandiki nenu nachaka, naaku kontha mandi nachaka ila anni stages lonu filter ayyi aagipoyayi na pelli sambandhalu.

Oka relative dwara oka sambandham vachindi. Pelli choopulaki vacharu abbayi & valla amma nanna. Office nundi vachina ventane pelli choopulu, so apatiki nenu tierd ga unnanu, ade vishayam akkada casual ga matladuthu unte chepparu ma vallu. Naku kaaboye atha garu naku juice offer chesindi, "nuvvu thagamma, alisipoyi vachav kada" ani. Nenu chala santhoshincha, ila alochinche vallu untara ani.(Girls, beware ilantivi anni traps, assalu nammadhu). A abbayi pelli choopullo natho em matladaledu, tharwata valla amma phone chesi "ma abbayi me ammaayi ni tappa inkevvarini cheskonu antunnadu, meeku istam ayithe pelli chedham" annaru.

Nenu matladali ankunna aa abbayi tho, bayata kalisam, appudu kooda thanu ekkuva em matladaledu. Intikochaka ma parents naa opinion adigaru. Naku ma parents ki em cheppalo teliyaledu(Idi nenu chesina 1st mistake). Ma parents strict type kaadu, ayna nenu ila cheppesariki, arranged marriage kada evarikaina alage untundi ani ma parents ankunnaru.(Idi vallu chesina mistake).

Okkasari matladi life marchese decision ni ela tiskuntaru? idi ela cheppalo kuda naku apudu theliyaledu, because I am 23 at that time. Vallu nacha cheppesariki nenu kuda arranged marriages lo andariki ilage untundemo ankunna, slow ga alavatu avthadule ankunna. Motthaniki pelli fix ayyindi. 

Engagement & Pelli grand ga cheyyali annaru, dowry oddu annaru(Ma parents ki sambaram!!). Engagement ki pelliki 3 months gap vachindi. Ee gap lo nenu matladindi ekkuva athanu matladinadi thakkuva. Thinnava, bagunava thappa inkemi matladevadu kaadu, adi kuda nenu palakaristhene. Athani behaviour anthe ankunnanu (idi nenu chesina 2nd mistake).

Pelli aipoyindi, ma family lo evvaru cheyyanatha grand ga na pelli chesaru, all are happy. Pelli lo ma mamayya "Me ammayi ni maa ammayi la chuskuntam" annaru(Eppudaina ee dialouge vinte nammakandi, standard trap dialouge). Inka next first night time dagara padindhi. Ea ammaiki aina 1st time ilanti situation ante,that too arranged marriage lo ela feel avtharo ammayilu ga me andariki thelsu. Siggu, bhayam ani kalisipoyi untayi. Nijaniki pelli anedaniki ardham akkade modhalavthundi. Grand ga pelli chesinantha mathrana dhampatulu okkati avvaleru, 1st night lone valliddari manasulu kuda kalisedi, oka bandham earpadedi akkade. Mana pedhavallu anduke deeni boothu anukoledu,oka sasthram anukunnaru.

Enno aasalu tho, bhayam tho jeevitham start chesthunna ane anandham tho aa room loki adugu pettina naaku modhati shock thagilindi. Aa night antha athanu tv lo cinema chusthu kurchunnadu. Naku em cheppalo, ela matladalo kuda ardham kaledu. Bahusa athaniki siggu emo ankunna.(3rd mistake)

Honeymoon oddu annadu, nenu pattu patti veldam ani thesukella. Place change aythe na fate maaruthundemo ani anukuna, akkada kuda athanu naa meeda cheyyi kuda veyyaledu. Inka ila kaadani nenu ante meeku istam leda? ani adigesa. Istam undi kaani manam kaluskopothe enti nastam annadu. Kaneesam matladochu kada anna, em matladatham chiraku theppinchaku ani kasurukunnadu.

Ila one and half month gadichindi, ee lopu nenu cheyyalsinavi anni chesa,athaniki nachela dressup cheskunna, athanu thittina bharinchanu. Ma Inlaws ki ee vishayam thelsi ma parents tho, "memu unnam kada me ammai ki anyayam jaraganivvamu, koncham time ivvandi" ani chepparu. Ma parents oopukunaru. 

Athanilo change em raakapoga na meeda thitlu ekkuva ayyayi. Enti idi ani ma parents ma in-laws ni phone lo adigithe "me ammaayi maa daggare undi, evarikaina chepparante me ammaayi meeku dakkadhu" ani chepparu

Ma parents ki em cheyyalo ardham kaledu. Ilanti vishayalu eppudu vinaledu, deal cheyyaledu. Nenu oka roju ma atha garini "emiti me abbai nannu muttukodu " ani adiganu.

Daaniki aavida "nikeppudu ave alochanala ?"ani adigaaru.

"Unte thappenti? naaku na bhartha meeda unnayi kaani vere vaadi meeda levu kada" ani adiga.

"Ninnu chusthe naaku anumanam ga undhi, neku virginity test chepista pada" ani aame annaru.

Naalo nenu chachipoyanu ee maata ki, kaani dhairyam thechukuni," nenu test ki ready, me abbayi kuda doctor ki chupinchukodaniki ready aa" ani adiganu. Thappu nenu cheyyanappudu naakenduku bhayam?

Aa roju godava pedhadi ayyindi, ma parents vacharu, vaallani ma in-laws bayataki gentesaru. Evvariki cheppakunda aa roju rathri nannu  maro urilo vala chuttala intiki thesukellipoyaru. Athanu akkada job chuskunnadu. Naalo inka pichi aasa maarataadu ani kani puli bone loki velthunna ani theliyaledu. Akkadaki vellaka telsindi athanu Gay ani.(Can't explain how I found it!!). Naku Torture modalaindi, deenni nenu varninchadam naaku istam ledu endukante cheppali ante gurthu cheskovali, adi na valla kaadu.

Okaroju kopam peaks loki velli nannu gonthu nulimi champeyyaboyadu, akkadito ma pelli bandham thegipoyindi ani nenu ankunnanu. Tharwata evvariki cheppakunda kattu battaltho ma parents intiki vachesa.

Tharwata godavalu, lawyers, chuttalu, rumours, salahalu, dabbulu, comprimise lu chaala ayyayi. Mutual concern ki apply chesam. 3years ki maku court divorce ichindi. Dabbulu, nagalu, paruvu poyinanduku naku badha ledu. Athani behaviour tho 3 years na manashanthi ni, future meeda na parents aasani, mukhyam ga manushula meeda nammakanni naasanam chesesadu.

Aa tarwata naku manushulni nammalante bhayam vesedi. Mind divert cheskodaniki nenu job lo join ayyanu. Na parents ki baga thelisina oka uncle & aunty oka roju ma intiki ochi "Me ammaayi ni ma abbayi ki ichi pelli chesthara" ani adigaru. Ma parents na opinion adigaru. Naku vachina modati alochana, vallenduku nannu pelli cheskundam ankuntunnaru? Kani appatike ontari life ki alavatu paddanu, janalni nammaleni stage lo unna, kani oka moola aasa andaru alage untara ani. Koncham time adigi aa abbayi tho na position antha vivarinchi cheppa, naku appatiki chaala bhayalu undevi, pelli ante bhayam, baajalu vinipiste naku chamatalu pattevi, magallani 'aa' angle chudalante bhayam, nannu reject chestaremo ani bhayam.. Ivanni athaniki clear cheppanu. Tanu nenu cheppindantha vini, naku thelsinanthalo ninnu jagrata ga chuskuntanu ani annadu. Nenu ee sari malli maatalni nammalankoledu. Bahusa devudu ichina dairyam tho pelliki oppukunanemo. Thanu chala manchi vadu nannu baga ardam cheskunadu. Chinna chinna lopalu andarilo untai, valla family lo kuda unnai aa lopalu, nenu bharinchalanukunnanu.. Asalu nannu badha pette na past gurinchi tanu eppudu discuss cheyledu, thanu promise chesinatte!!! Pelli ayi 5 months ayindi, I am happy with my husband.

Girls,nenu cheppalnkunnadi okkate, pelliki mundu mosam chesi vellipoye vallu entha mandi untaro pelli ayyaka kuda  nana rakaluga torture petevallu antha mandi untaru. Gay culture perigipoyindi, vellaki society kosam oka pellam kaavali, kopam vaste kottadaniki.

Konni points useful avthai gurthupettukondi.

* Me first instict ni nammandi avi correct ga untai

* Idantha chadivaka enti ee ammayi? Only sexual pleasure kosam vadilesinda husband ni ani meeru ankovachu, kaani friends, adi kuda pelli lo oka bhagam. Pelliki mundu sex correcto kaado naku teledu,kaani pelli ayyaka matram adi lekapothe iddaru different environments nundi vachina manshulu kalisi undaleru. 

* Maatalu nammakandi,chethalu nammandi.

* Physical attraction plays more important role during early days of marriage. Gradual ga ade 100years prema ki daari theesthundi.

* Good touch ki bad touch ki theda me 4 years aadapillaki cheptharu, alage touch cheyadaniki, cheyakapodaniki theda me edigina pillalki cheppandi.

*  Okka request, amma lu andaru me koduku ni, sisters andaru me brothers ni, pelli ki mundu nu annitiki ready ga unnava, leda ani adigi pelli cheyyandi. Pelli chesthe bagupadathadu (ma inlaws ide maata chepparu naaku), ani cheyyoddu... avathala unnadi maro aadapilla jeevitham... Gays and lesbians are there in this society. We should not become baits for them.

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Ilanti problem face chesthu bayata valaki cheppukoleka thamalo thaamu struggle avthu chala  mandi unnaru... Kontha mandi e pain ni end cheskodaniki vala life ni end cheskuntunaru. Which is NOT correct. Aa God manaki chala problems istharu alane manam vatitho poraadi geliche sakthi ni kuda istharu. So ilanti situation porapatuna meku osthe sucide lantivi cheskokunda (aa thoughts kuda dagara ranivakandi) e ammayi la,  take life into your hands, you will stay happy forever. .

Girls who are in marriage age, do choose your life partner wisely.

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